kinda hating the life that i lead. freaking boring.. getting sick, useless and emotional as each day goes by.. i'm not being myself recently at school. i miss being all crazy and hyper-active when fun people are all by my side. but now, i got the feeling that some people is taking me for granted or even worst, use me. )*%#$^&^@)(. sometimes i wonder, why am i being all nice to some people and end up i feel shitty? i sick of this shit. so for now, i think i shall reveal my true colours to certain peeps.. hmmm..

actually, what makes me all moody and emotional (not pms!) is all because of that old story that is already waayyyy past, dead, gone and all burned up and suddenly appear again just like that?! WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN. hate me for all you want, but i don't really care what you think of me. i know where i'm standing now. i've learn the mistakes that i used to mess up. so don't even tell me what am i suppose to do or whatever shit! i thought it would be hard for me, but i'm okay cause bby always make me feel better. hah.

always thought of escaping school like last time. i feel like doing it so but nah i don't want because i will feel hopeless in the end =x so fuck it. my heart is so heavy and everything that i see is bringing me down. what the hell is going on? why it is happening to me? ahhhhh!!! sigh. screw all fucked up things!

bby is sick. aww :( damn, freaking miss that dude. i can even cry when missing him so much.. T.T been thinking about him and can't help stop having that feeling.. guess he's like my drug that i'm addicted to :) 

xoxo